I haven't posted for a while because I have been eating a lot of junk! I gave up trying to change my ways because I felt the portal closed. When it's closed I expend energy needlessly if I try to force something. Now that the full moon has passed, I think it will be easier for me to fall into healthier eating.
Looking forward to going to UK and US in a couple of weeks. There is no produce here at the moment. No lettuce, no greens, very little but oranges, apples and bananas. Not conducive to my efforts!
I am waiting for the moment to start the release. My body contracts when I don't eat God's food.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Saturday, March 21, 2009
An Update
The reason I've been away so long is that my son yanked the space bar off my computer! I couldn't type properly just using the rubber nipple underneath. Now it's been put back (thanks to my husband, he's great at fixing just about anything).
I have been off raw since my illness and am happy to report that my weight has gone up to 48 kilos in that short time. I was getting really worried. My son is happier with my milk quality and supply too.
On the less positive side, I have slipped back into my heavy reliance on sugar and it is not by choice. The addiction is in charge of me! I have started to increase my fruit consumption as following the intestinal problems I really couldn't digest it at all and hope to return soon to my raw state.
I was happiest raw and remember the time I couldn't imagine returning to cooked and junk food. The one thing that would help me stay raw would be to be living somewhere with hygiene and good fruit. For weeks my neighbourhood has only had rotten fruit and no lettuce, just wilted rotting tennis ball sized things. There is no chain supermarket round here and it's a very poor area with constant rubbish scavenging by professional scavengers.
I am waiting for a portal to open that will facilitate my return to raw, today I managed to buy a decent quantity of fruit and will aim for a raw day tomorrow. Wish me luck!
I have been off raw since my illness and am happy to report that my weight has gone up to 48 kilos in that short time. I was getting really worried. My son is happier with my milk quality and supply too.
On the less positive side, I have slipped back into my heavy reliance on sugar and it is not by choice. The addiction is in charge of me! I have started to increase my fruit consumption as following the intestinal problems I really couldn't digest it at all and hope to return soon to my raw state.
I was happiest raw and remember the time I couldn't imagine returning to cooked and junk food. The one thing that would help me stay raw would be to be living somewhere with hygiene and good fruit. For weeks my neighbourhood has only had rotten fruit and no lettuce, just wilted rotting tennis ball sized things. There is no chain supermarket round here and it's a very poor area with constant rubbish scavenging by professional scavengers.
I am waiting for a portal to open that will facilitate my return to raw, today I managed to buy a decent quantity of fruit and will aim for a raw day tomorrow. Wish me luck!
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Ma Po Tofu Yum Yum!
Tonight is my last supper....I ate Ma Po Tofu, absolutely delicious. I know it's not 811rv and it will make me sweat and get grotty but...after a month and a week on raw, this amazing dish of bean curd in oyster sauce with green peppers, onions and zucchinis was heartbreakingly good.
Tomorrow is March 1st and, stomach being curedish (still farting alot!), I will return to my raw sanity. Goodbye Ma Po Tofu - yes, you guessed it, I am still high on MSG and all those toxins...
Goodbye too to the white chocolate alfajor I ate, a maize cookie sandwiched with dulce de leche and chestnut.
Hello Raw, my friend and saviour. I await you with longing for the sweet relief, physical and mental, that you bring. Like the shade of the willow tree from an angry mid-afternoon sun.
Tomorrow is March 1st and, stomach being curedish (still farting alot!), I will return to my raw sanity. Goodbye Ma Po Tofu - yes, you guessed it, I am still high on MSG and all those toxins...
Goodbye too to the white chocolate alfajor I ate, a maize cookie sandwiched with dulce de leche and chestnut.
Hello Raw, my friend and saviour. I await you with longing for the sweet relief, physical and mental, that you bring. Like the shade of the willow tree from an angry mid-afternoon sun.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Taking a Cooked Holiday
Well, there is method behind my madness...
After suffering chronic diarrhea from Friday afternoon to Tuesday evening, my weight had gone down to 44.5 kilos. It has never been that low in my life. My old lady eyes were sunken in my head, hooded and triangular, and everything I ate passed right through me. I was going to the bathroom several times an hour and chronically dehydrated. All the while, I was continuing to breastfeed my baby.
As an alternative to going to hospital, I decided to follow my father's (he's a doctor) and husband's advice and eat foods like boiled rice and oatmeal. Slowly, the diarrhea began to abate, thanks also to a poison-absorbing medicine called cream of bismuth which is similar to kaolin. Today is the first day I am back to normal, and my third day on cooked. I really feel I had no choice.
I would like to go raw again tomorrow but may have to take it slowly and go far part raw and part steamed vegetables as my stomach and health are still quite delicate. I feel great compared to how I was during the illness although admittedly not so clean and fresh as on raw!!
I am 99% sure this was a bug caught from contaminated water. Probably something to do with the water that lettuces have been hosed down with by the grocers. They are then left in the heat and who knows what grows on them. I will have to use hydrogen peroxide to clean everything with in future.
After suffering chronic diarrhea from Friday afternoon to Tuesday evening, my weight had gone down to 44.5 kilos. It has never been that low in my life. My old lady eyes were sunken in my head, hooded and triangular, and everything I ate passed right through me. I was going to the bathroom several times an hour and chronically dehydrated. All the while, I was continuing to breastfeed my baby.
As an alternative to going to hospital, I decided to follow my father's (he's a doctor) and husband's advice and eat foods like boiled rice and oatmeal. Slowly, the diarrhea began to abate, thanks also to a poison-absorbing medicine called cream of bismuth which is similar to kaolin. Today is the first day I am back to normal, and my third day on cooked. I really feel I had no choice.
I would like to go raw again tomorrow but may have to take it slowly and go far part raw and part steamed vegetables as my stomach and health are still quite delicate. I feel great compared to how I was during the illness although admittedly not so clean and fresh as on raw!!
I am 99% sure this was a bug caught from contaminated water. Probably something to do with the water that lettuces have been hosed down with by the grocers. They are then left in the heat and who knows what grows on them. I will have to use hydrogen peroxide to clean everything with in future.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
More Cleansing...
I had to miss the milonga this Saturday, because my body had been doing some major cleansing since Friday night...I still don't know if this is a healing crisis or a reaction to Argentinian bugs but I have been living here 2 years now so I think it's a detox.
I've lost way too much weight lately. My pre-baby weight was 53/54 kilos. My heaviest during pregnancy was 68 and my stable low during intense breastfeeding was 50-52. However raw brought me down to about 48 and then several boughts of vomiting/diarrhea on a weekly basis have taken me to an all time low of 45. Not good. Alot is dehydration.
As a result, since yesterday I have begun to eat plenty of nuts as I am still feeding my son and need to get the weight back on while providing him with rich milk. I'm still within 80-10-10 because I have kept to well below the 10% fat for the last month so it all evens out. Today I must have eaten 150g of almonds/walnuts and feel better for it.
It's hard to get avocados here, in fact hard to find a good source of everything so monomeals are rare for me. I have been eating cherry/grape tomatoes by the kilo for the past few days however, and this is my current fave. One of those ecstatic foods, for me.
Thank the Lord for the underrated tiny tomatoes!
I've lost way too much weight lately. My pre-baby weight was 53/54 kilos. My heaviest during pregnancy was 68 and my stable low during intense breastfeeding was 50-52. However raw brought me down to about 48 and then several boughts of vomiting/diarrhea on a weekly basis have taken me to an all time low of 45. Not good. Alot is dehydration.
As a result, since yesterday I have begun to eat plenty of nuts as I am still feeding my son and need to get the weight back on while providing him with rich milk. I'm still within 80-10-10 because I have kept to well below the 10% fat for the last month so it all evens out. Today I must have eaten 150g of almonds/walnuts and feel better for it.
It's hard to get avocados here, in fact hard to find a good source of everything so monomeals are rare for me. I have been eating cherry/grape tomatoes by the kilo for the past few days however, and this is my current fave. One of those ecstatic foods, for me.
Thank the Lord for the underrated tiny tomatoes!
Monday, February 16, 2009
More Cleansing
I got sick again on Sat night/ Sun Morning, although it wasn't as bad as before. I'd had a bad time at the milonga.
My friend danced every set, but I sat all but the first one out! No one would dance with me. It was great for my ego as I am a professional dancer while my friend has only danced 2 years and she is 20 years older than me too. Ha, ha!
Someone has since told me that at that milonga people only dance with their friends. Ok, but could my "friend" not have introduced me to anyone there? She has pointed out an English guy there both times and he even brings her back to our table after her dance...Well, I actually began to wonder if it's a coincidence that I have got sick both times a few hours after going out with her. Maybe she's given me the evil eye or she's a witch or something!!
I will go again to the Thursday night and see what happens.
On the plus side, although I woke up with the stomach pains and horrible burps, I did not vomit. After lying there for a couple of hours with intense nausea, I managed to eventually go to the bathroom instead. It could be that my body is finally managing to purge this bug out of my system.
Last night, I had an intense craving for fried sausages which of course I ignored. I think I need to eat more greens. Just writing about it is making me start to fantasise again so I am going to sign off!!
My friend danced every set, but I sat all but the first one out! No one would dance with me. It was great for my ego as I am a professional dancer while my friend has only danced 2 years and she is 20 years older than me too. Ha, ha!
Someone has since told me that at that milonga people only dance with their friends. Ok, but could my "friend" not have introduced me to anyone there? She has pointed out an English guy there both times and he even brings her back to our table after her dance...Well, I actually began to wonder if it's a coincidence that I have got sick both times a few hours after going out with her. Maybe she's given me the evil eye or she's a witch or something!!
I will go again to the Thursday night and see what happens.
On the plus side, although I woke up with the stomach pains and horrible burps, I did not vomit. After lying there for a couple of hours with intense nausea, I managed to eventually go to the bathroom instead. It could be that my body is finally managing to purge this bug out of my system.
Last night, I had an intense craving for fried sausages which of course I ignored. I think I need to eat more greens. Just writing about it is making me start to fantasise again so I am going to sign off!!
Friday, February 13, 2009
Nutridiary
I have been charting my intake on Nutridiary for the last few weeks to make sure I'm getting enough calories. It's a great tool and it has helped me stuff myself a bit more than I probably would have otherwise!
I haven't had any problems in my milk supply quantity-wise since going raw, although a couple of times the baby has complained about the fat countent. So lately I have kept my fat close to 10% which is the max recommended on 80-10-10. This is easy for me as I like to consume a couple of teaspoons of olive oil, scantily used throughout the day on green and tomatoes. I also like nuts, but the dressing is number one for me so these last haven't figured in my diet recently.
Tomatoes have been my number one craving this week, sometimes I have been eating a kilo a day! Today I had some divine cherry tomatoes that had me letting out amorous cries, I had to laugh at myself. Yesterday it was the overripe figs that did that...
Corn on the cob is something I've cut down but not eliminated. It is not the easiest to digest and leads to a bit of acid reflux. However it's more filling than a lot of other raw stuff and sometimes I do get tired of fruit.
I have a stash of raspberries and strawberries for the morrow. I haven't eaten any of these all summer (it's summer here!)
Can't wait. Wondering how strawberries and tomatoes will marry together too...
I haven't had any problems in my milk supply quantity-wise since going raw, although a couple of times the baby has complained about the fat countent. So lately I have kept my fat close to 10% which is the max recommended on 80-10-10. This is easy for me as I like to consume a couple of teaspoons of olive oil, scantily used throughout the day on green and tomatoes. I also like nuts, but the dressing is number one for me so these last haven't figured in my diet recently.
Tomatoes have been my number one craving this week, sometimes I have been eating a kilo a day! Today I had some divine cherry tomatoes that had me letting out amorous cries, I had to laugh at myself. Yesterday it was the overripe figs that did that...
Corn on the cob is something I've cut down but not eliminated. It is not the easiest to digest and leads to a bit of acid reflux. However it's more filling than a lot of other raw stuff and sometimes I do get tired of fruit.
I have a stash of raspberries and strawberries for the morrow. I haven't eaten any of these all summer (it's summer here!)
Can't wait. Wondering how strawberries and tomatoes will marry together too...
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Getting Fit
Today I walked 4 or 5 km which doesn't sound like much, but a couple of months ago I could barely make it up the stairs and was too weak to hold my baby! I decided to try and do these walks everyday and even managed some push-ups - albeit the girly knee ones.
I feel so much fitter and look forward to taking my thyroid blood test one of these days to compare it to my pre-raw results.
Cravings the last few days for massive quantities of divine plum tomatoes, although today one of the veg sellers got annoyed at me for picking the good ones out of his offerings! Trouble is, if you let them pick 'em for you, they have no qualms about giving you the most rotten. Anyway, they were delicious, that deep dark red that tastes of seasoning on it's own. I added some sea salt, which I am trying to curb as I love it so much!
Dreaming of raw olives which you cannot buy here. And my first taste of Durian which will hopefully be within the year. A durian in Buenos Aires? Not even on the menu at the Casa Rosada...
I feel so much fitter and look forward to taking my thyroid blood test one of these days to compare it to my pre-raw results.
Cravings the last few days for massive quantities of divine plum tomatoes, although today one of the veg sellers got annoyed at me for picking the good ones out of his offerings! Trouble is, if you let them pick 'em for you, they have no qualms about giving you the most rotten. Anyway, they were delicious, that deep dark red that tastes of seasoning on it's own. I added some sea salt, which I am trying to curb as I love it so much!
Dreaming of raw olives which you cannot buy here. And my first taste of Durian which will hopefully be within the year. A durian in Buenos Aires? Not even on the menu at the Casa Rosada...
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Cleansing Reactions?
Well, I haven't posted for a while, partly because I had a couple of bouts of being less than well.
First, I got this vomiting stomach bug again...it's one I've had every 10 weeks for the past 6 months. It comes with these disgusting eggy burps and I reckon it's an Argentine bug since I've never had anything like it in UK or Europe. This time, I dealt with it by eating only grapes for nearly 48 hours, these delicious black grapes of a variety called "Alfonso". They are as good as a glass of wine! Anyway, that finally cured me and I wonder if I am retracing, i.e reliving past illnesses as I cleanse myself. It felt like my body was finally trying to purge the bug!
Then a few days later, I went to my first "milonga" after a year of not dancing tango due to pregnancy and baby. A milonga is the name for both the dance hall and the tango evening, as well as the name of a fast type of tango which has a more upbeat rhythm and melody.
It was great, I danced about four sets or "tandas" of tango and managed that whole etiquette of letting the man catch your eye if you want to dance. If you do, you glance at him to make sure, he gives a questioning look, you nod slightly, he may nod to check (!) and then finally he walks over to your table and leads you to the dance floor. It felt a little strange at first, with my husband back at home with our baby!
Anyway, I had worn a bra marginally tighter than usual to make sure the straps didn't keep falling down when I danced. That night, I came down with mastitis and a blocked duct. I was panicking for a couple of hours but finally managed to burst the blockage which appeared as a white blister in the nipple. I was sore for the whole of the next day, with a slight temperature, but by the evening things were improving. Another cleansing reaction? I hadn't had mastitis since my son was born, so maybe. Or just a bad bra!
First, I got this vomiting stomach bug again...it's one I've had every 10 weeks for the past 6 months. It comes with these disgusting eggy burps and I reckon it's an Argentine bug since I've never had anything like it in UK or Europe. This time, I dealt with it by eating only grapes for nearly 48 hours, these delicious black grapes of a variety called "Alfonso". They are as good as a glass of wine! Anyway, that finally cured me and I wonder if I am retracing, i.e reliving past illnesses as I cleanse myself. It felt like my body was finally trying to purge the bug!
Then a few days later, I went to my first "milonga" after a year of not dancing tango due to pregnancy and baby. A milonga is the name for both the dance hall and the tango evening, as well as the name of a fast type of tango which has a more upbeat rhythm and melody.
It was great, I danced about four sets or "tandas" of tango and managed that whole etiquette of letting the man catch your eye if you want to dance. If you do, you glance at him to make sure, he gives a questioning look, you nod slightly, he may nod to check (!) and then finally he walks over to your table and leads you to the dance floor. It felt a little strange at first, with my husband back at home with our baby!
Anyway, I had worn a bra marginally tighter than usual to make sure the straps didn't keep falling down when I danced. That night, I came down with mastitis and a blocked duct. I was panicking for a couple of hours but finally managed to burst the blockage which appeared as a white blister in the nipple. I was sore for the whole of the next day, with a slight temperature, but by the evening things were improving. Another cleansing reaction? I hadn't had mastitis since my son was born, so maybe. Or just a bad bra!
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Small Improvements...
I thought I'd just note down some improvements:
My husband commented how nice and smooth my skin looked. He though I was wearing make-up but I wasn't!!
I stopped wearing deodorant and didn't even notice for a couple of days that I had - don't need it anymore.
My joints are more supple
I can stretch more easily and if I hold a stretch my body gives into it, where as before I had biltong tendons!
I'm so much calmer and feel positive about life.
I look forward to the day when I wake up, just like I used to (when I was a child!)
My husband commented how nice and smooth my skin looked. He though I was wearing make-up but I wasn't!!
I stopped wearing deodorant and didn't even notice for a couple of days that I had - don't need it anymore.
My joints are more supple
I can stretch more easily and if I hold a stretch my body gives into it, where as before I had biltong tendons!
I'm so much calmer and feel positive about life.
I look forward to the day when I wake up, just like I used to (when I was a child!)
Thursday, January 29, 2009
2 Weeks Off Sugar!
Yes, it's two weeks now since I had any sugar, nearly two weeks that I've been completely raw. I can't remember exactly when that fortnightiversary is now, Saturday I think.
I still get some detox headaches but not as strong. I've felt big emotional releases the last couple of days. I actually got really upset with my husband for not warning me not to touch prickly pears and getting spines in my fingers...we had to get them out while I watched my nightly Monk episode, with flashlight and tweezers.
I have calmness, clarity, feel like I am healing. So far I haven't found it hard sticking to raw because I remember lying in bed when my pulse was only 40 bpm scared to close my eyes in case I didn't make it till morning. I remember not being able to carry my baby in case I dropped him because I was so weak and dizzy.
I'm so grateful to be here at this point. I don't think I can afford to put junk in my body anymore, and, knowing how the other way feels, I don't want to.
I still get some detox headaches but not as strong. I've felt big emotional releases the last couple of days. I actually got really upset with my husband for not warning me not to touch prickly pears and getting spines in my fingers...we had to get them out while I watched my nightly Monk episode, with flashlight and tweezers.
I have calmness, clarity, feel like I am healing. So far I haven't found it hard sticking to raw because I remember lying in bed when my pulse was only 40 bpm scared to close my eyes in case I didn't make it till morning. I remember not being able to carry my baby in case I dropped him because I was so weak and dizzy.
I'm so grateful to be here at this point. I don't think I can afford to put junk in my body anymore, and, knowing how the other way feels, I don't want to.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Magic Monday
I can't believe it's Monday because I feel great and full of energy. I'm trying not to evangelise to my husband too much, not to ooh ahh too much about what I'm eating.
I've noticed he's been eating more fruit too lately and he actually drank some of my green smoothie today.
Best of all, he invented the most delicious smoothie I ever tasted - it's like chocolate milkshake!
1 banana
1 plum
10 walnut halves
ice cubes & a little water
Divine.
My new goal is to reach my daily requirements. I haven't gained weight but have lost too much from feeding baby. So far, not weight gain. Have stabilised after losing a little at first. Will try to turn up the volume.
I've noticed he's been eating more fruit too lately and he actually drank some of my green smoothie today.
Best of all, he invented the most delicious smoothie I ever tasted - it's like chocolate milkshake!
1 banana
1 plum
10 walnut halves
ice cubes & a little water
Divine.
My new goal is to reach my daily requirements. I haven't gained weight but have lost too much from feeding baby. So far, not weight gain. Have stabilised after losing a little at first. Will try to turn up the volume.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
I Feel Fantastic!
I had a good day today, consumed 1679 approx according to nutridiary. Was happy with the nutritional contents too, although the recommended protein should have been higher.
Haven't eaten this much since I was a child, haven't eaten so well since I was attached to a placenta. Maybe the same energy I had when I was 8!
Feel great, thankful to have discovered this way of eating, thankful to Doug Graham for putting it into scientific context. I know many have espoused this way of life since time immemorial, I was always inspired by the Essene Gospels, but the research and data helps you see through the haze of insanity that surrounds us.
Still, it's a learning curve and I pray to God and the angels to help me on my path...
Haven't eaten this much since I was a child, haven't eaten so well since I was attached to a placenta. Maybe the same energy I had when I was 8!
Feel great, thankful to have discovered this way of eating, thankful to Doug Graham for putting it into scientific context. I know many have espoused this way of life since time immemorial, I was always inspired by the Essene Gospels, but the research and data helps you see through the haze of insanity that surrounds us.
Still, it's a learning curve and I pray to God and the angels to help me on my path...
Friday, January 23, 2009
811rv
I've been plotting my intake of food on nutridiary.com and trying to reach the rec. daily calorie requirement, following Doug Graham's 80-10-10 diet plan. I had tried to go down this route a while back but it seemed to stringent at the time.
80% calories from carbs 10% from protein and 10% from fat, all from eating raw fruit and veg, nuts and seeds & drinking only water.
Today I reached 1426 cals, not enough for a breastfeeding woman and I need to gain weight.
Still, in terms of nutrition it's a massive leap forward.
Today I ate:
4 bananas
2 ears of corn
wedge of watermelon
4 plums
4 figs
200g grapes
1 huge green salad
1/4 avocado
1/2 small bell pepper
small carrot
Just like the very hungry caterpillar.
Improvements:
Old arm injury way improved
Mood stable - happy
Irises seem shinier
Skin smoother
Tongue pinker and cleaner
No bad morning breath
Stronger energetic connection with life force - seeing auras better
Will note others as they continue...
80% calories from carbs 10% from protein and 10% from fat, all from eating raw fruit and veg, nuts and seeds & drinking only water.
Today I reached 1426 cals, not enough for a breastfeeding woman and I need to gain weight.
Still, in terms of nutrition it's a massive leap forward.
Today I ate:
4 bananas
2 ears of corn
wedge of watermelon
4 plums
4 figs
200g grapes
1 huge green salad
1/4 avocado
1/2 small bell pepper
small carrot
Just like the very hungry caterpillar.
Improvements:
Old arm injury way improved
Mood stable - happy
Irises seem shinier
Skin smoother
Tongue pinker and cleaner
No bad morning breath
Stronger energetic connection with life force - seeing auras better
Will note others as they continue...
Monday, January 19, 2009
100% Raw So Far
Today I ate 4 bananas, 1 head of lettuce with a tsp oil, 1 ear of corn, 1 big wedge watermelon and 1 orange.... I need to eat more tonight as am feeding baby and he drains me. So far so good.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
High on Raw!
Well, the last 3 days I've eaten mainly raw fruit and veg. Today I had one lot of the diet hot chocolate, but then read some horrific stuff about aspartame. Apparently it was invented as ant poision...I'm scared to touch the stuff now.
I've had a lot of kundalini activity and opening to angel vibrations. A blue-silver most intensely beautiful energetic surrounding. I feel blessed right now and will continue along this path and endeavour to return to it if I ever stray.
I also experienced a slightly disturbing opening of my heart chakra, I was a little nervous I was having a heart attack. It was a bit uncomfortable, like that paralysis thing that happens sometimes when you drink something cold. I'm okay though, and it feels like a great blockages was released.
Release is the key...
I've had a lot of kundalini activity and opening to angel vibrations. A blue-silver most intensely beautiful energetic surrounding. I feel blessed right now and will continue along this path and endeavour to return to it if I ever stray.
I also experienced a slightly disturbing opening of my heart chakra, I was a little nervous I was having a heart attack. It was a bit uncomfortable, like that paralysis thing that happens sometimes when you drink something cold. I'm okay though, and it feels like a great blockages was released.
Release is the key...
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Sugar in baby Nestle food!
Yes that's right, Nestle baby food in Argentina, labelled Nestum, contains added sugar!!
I couldn't believe it when I first saw it on the packet, and what's more all the varieties have it in. There isn't even a sugar-free alternative. I looked up the UK version and it's sugar-free and by comparing the carb values worked out that there's a considerable amount of sugar added.
I wanted to give my son baby rice so that he gets the extra vitamins it's fortified with. So far I make all his food and they don't sell jars here anyway. I will have to get some baby vitamins for him instead, but I think it's a disgrace to get babies sugar-addicted in order to make increased sales...it really shouldn't be allowed.
I couldn't believe it when I first saw it on the packet, and what's more all the varieties have it in. There isn't even a sugar-free alternative. I looked up the UK version and it's sugar-free and by comparing the carb values worked out that there's a considerable amount of sugar added.
I wanted to give my son baby rice so that he gets the extra vitamins it's fortified with. So far I make all his food and they don't sell jars here anyway. I will have to get some baby vitamins for him instead, but I think it's a disgrace to get babies sugar-addicted in order to make increased sales...it really shouldn't be allowed.
Day 2 Back On Track!
Well, I'm happy to report that I have reached day 2 without sugar again! No overts, no coverts this time. I want to regain my health & freedom, those are my new focuses.
I have had some sugar-free hot chocolate which is laden with all sorts of fake stuff but I'm really pleased with myself so far. Going to post something about baby food now, a frustrated rant...
I have had some sugar-free hot chocolate which is laden with all sorts of fake stuff but I'm really pleased with myself so far. Going to post something about baby food now, a frustrated rant...
Friday, January 9, 2009
Not doing too well...
I have been unable to release myself from the sugar of late. Though each time I regret my actions. Release is the key word. I need release, I crave release however it is hard to let go!
The world seems too infinite without the addiction to box me in. Dare I release myself? I'm waiting for that window to open, that opportune moment. They come once in a while, a portal of openness to change. It was the same when I quit smoking. It was easier when I did it during a portal.
I shall try to invite the portal tomorrow. I am willing it.
The world seems too infinite without the addiction to box me in. Dare I release myself? I'm waiting for that window to open, that opportune moment. They come once in a while, a portal of openness to change. It was the same when I quit smoking. It was easier when I did it during a portal.
I shall try to invite the portal tomorrow. I am willing it.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Roll-on 2009!
Well, thank g*d I managed to change my settings so that I'm posting in English again. I had wanted my blog in hindi too, but not soleley as I couldn't even see what I was typing.
So I fell by the wayside right royally and I can blame it on the fact that my blog had converted into Hindi which wasn't encouraging me to post. Of course I was too lazy to change it until now, and admit defeat in the hands of the sugar monster. Bubblegum, candy, icing sugar, a glut of hot chocolate...it actually doesn't help that I'm breastfeeding and not gaining any weight.
Happy to report I am feeling better, having reached a health low when my pulse was only 40. I have been eating more healthy stuff like egg whites, sardines, nuts and dried fruit, cheese, rice cakes. Now I will try again to cut out the sugar.
It was easier when I didn't have baby and could do a raw fruit diet. That isn't enough to sustain my milk supply now.
The sugar is impeding my kundalini expansion. It's invited by my kundalini symptoms which give me cravings. Still, I have to find a solution. Will try again tomorrow to keep the overts out of my diet. Wish me luck! (I'm talking to myself, of course, past, present and future, since I'm the only ones following this blog...)
So I fell by the wayside right royally and I can blame it on the fact that my blog had converted into Hindi which wasn't encouraging me to post. Of course I was too lazy to change it until now, and admit defeat in the hands of the sugar monster. Bubblegum, candy, icing sugar, a glut of hot chocolate...it actually doesn't help that I'm breastfeeding and not gaining any weight.
Happy to report I am feeling better, having reached a health low when my pulse was only 40. I have been eating more healthy stuff like egg whites, sardines, nuts and dried fruit, cheese, rice cakes. Now I will try again to cut out the sugar.
It was easier when I didn't have baby and could do a raw fruit diet. That isn't enough to sustain my milk supply now.
The sugar is impeding my kundalini expansion. It's invited by my kundalini symptoms which give me cravings. Still, I have to find a solution. Will try again tomorrow to keep the overts out of my diet. Wish me luck! (I'm talking to myself, of course, past, present and future, since I'm the only ones following this blog...)
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